life is full of ups and downs.. so, live your life to the fullest…

aloha..mm,dah 3 minggu dah after operation..rasa cam dah lama je..uwaa…makan masih berpantang lagi.. makan bubur, sayur rebus2..dok sendiri ni tak makan ikan pon..erm, kalau mak tau mesti mak marah.. bukan apa, tak sempat nak beli ikan.. biasa balik kelas azan maghrib tu baru je bukak mangga pagar umah tu.. letih kan naik bas? nak jalan kuar g jalan besar dah 15 minit, tunggu bas paling cepat 15 minit, dok dalam bas 30 minit, sampai bandar tu nak g kelas kene jalan lagi 15-20 minit.. dahlah takleh jalan laju2.. now ni plak kene attend kelas ganti.. abis kol10.. mama…camne? terpaksalah tumpang orang.. bahaya gadis ayu cam aku ni jalan sorang2 malam2..ayu? yela, kene pakai baju kurung je untuk sebulan dua nih.. huhuhu..

now ni tgh pening ..saje nak menulis2.. tgh tunggu kelas ganti japg..sir macam sibuk je.. cam ade big project je dia nak buat! sekali je kelas batal.. mama, jahatlah tu.. kalau yela, maunye nangis nih..

erm.. ape la lagi nak merepek.. oo…kak siti kesayangan ramai..semoga berbahagia la hendaknya bersama cik abang k dan anak2 tiri sekalian..ade satu ayat anak datuk k yang aku rasa cam kelaka la gak.. "b4 this saya panggil siti nurhaliza kak siti, pasni taktau nak panggil apa.." so, korang rasa, what’s the best name should the anak2 call their new mom? mama?umi?ibu?emak?kakak cantik? urm.. sibuk je..biarlah derang kan? nilah susahnya jadik orang popular..

okla.. kelas nak start dah.. wish me the very best for the upcoming MCSE first test!!! i’ve to struggle really hard!!

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Selamanya
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erm..mesti ramai kan yang suka lagu jujur by radja ni?? think that the lyrics ..mmm..yalah, as for me, i have some memory with this song.. hahahah..  urmm.. just let it be.. suruh orang jujur, tapi dia tak jujur pon..camne tu eh? aahhh..susahnye nak paham makhluk yang bernama lelaki ni.. kalau tak suke, cakap jelah kan..i can accept it la..don’t worry, i won’t hang myself or berdiri kat tgh2 laluan keretapi tuh.. apepon, u teach me the meaning of "jujur"

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there’s another song.. erm..nice lyric i think..APA SAJA by KRU

Apa saja untukmu
Tak ku hiraukan waktu
Katakan saja ‘kan ku laksana
Permaisuri kau bertakhta di jiwa
Apa saja untukmu
Ke dasar lautan biru
Bertaruh nyawa andai kau damba
Mutiara…di hari lahirmu
Kita menuju gemilang asmara
Tiada cinta setanding kita
Ku rela sehingga ke akhirnya
Tunai segala mimpi mu
Uhh…ratuku

Untukmu kasih
Ku cuba meraih
Bintang di angkasa
Walau tak terdayakan ku ikhtiar
Untukmu kasih
Gembira bersedih
Selagi ku bernyawa
Untukmu kasih, ku korban apa saja

Apa saja untukmu
‘Kan ku ubah caraku
Jikalau itu yang kau mahu
Apa saja demi kebahgiaanmu

Bukanku pinta yang luarbiasa
Cuma secebis janji setia
Inilah…lagu cinta kita
Hanya terbaik untukmu
Selama-lamanya

urmm..kekadang bile dgr lagu ni..ade gak cam sebak2.. apa saja konon.. ntah pape je janji.. ala..manade manusia perfect, kan?

apepon..hopefully that i’ll find the other half of me soon.. the one who will be honest and willing to love me as who I am.. ada apa dengan cinta????

wulla..it’s 4 am..coming to the second half of da game..france already scored one, a penalty by zizou at 33 minutes of the first half game when henry was tackled by ricardo carvalho.. portugal avtually have some great chances with their strikers - deco, cristiano ronaldo, maniche and not to forget mr captain, luis figo. the game has started lorh.. let’s watch..

hurm,what a great chances for henry..huh, great save by ricardo anyway!! looks like french man controlled the game.. they were in the high spirit,huh? apelah agaknye coach kurus kecik derang tu kasik tonik? hhehehhe..

go pauleta..uppss.. what a miss..alrite, it’s a corner for portugal..erm..too far!!why did people like to kick the ball rite to the middle in front of the goal.. i think that they are just wasting the ball.. aren’y they? erm..they should try another technique la..

scolari - garang tul mamat boroi nih.. think that ref arini cam berat ke perancis kot.. but it’s cool,no yellow card yet!

uwaa…cam malas nak menaip..alamak abang miguel ku kuar..injured ke..ces..takpe2 ..go..go.. cayla..let’s focus..tak kirelah who’s going to meet my team itali in da final.. forza azzuri..chiow..

erm..do you want to see the specimen that has been removed by the doctor during the operation? want? don’t want? nak..tak nak?ok..ok.. i’ll show u later..

semalam g hospital..bukak balutan..alhamdulillah, tak terbukak kesan operation tuh..erm, still kene makan ubat la.. sebab kandungan darah dalam badan sangatlah masih kurang..

balik dari hospital tuh..makcik2 jiran ni datang melawat.. mula2 sorang..pastu datang sorang lagi…pastu datang lagi… sumenye adelah 7-8 orang.. masa derang datang tu, g lah dapo nak buat air..tapi kene marah plak.. yelah..sebab angkat barang berat..ala, abis tu..takkan tak kasik minum? banyaklah pantang larang yang aku dapat..nak tau tak apa? mak pon dapat petua camne nak mask ikan haruan,.. semalam abah belik ikan haruan 2 ekor..uish..melenting2 derang dok dalam baldi tuh..

"aziyan( makcik2 kejiranan used to called me with that name)ni, tak payah buat air..kan berat tu..kalau cik tau nak pegi buat air tadi, cik tak kasi..ingatkan pergi bilik air"

"jangan angkat benda2 yang berat"

"yan(ade certain panggil camni, pendek sket)..kang tak payah gerak banyak2 sangat, rehat2 aje..takut tertetas pulak kang jahitan tuh.."

"sapu-sapu sampah tu jangan buat dulu, takut merekah"

"jangan dok mencangkung"..(luckily ade satu tandas duduk kat umah)

and the list ….adelah lagi..so..now i want to show you the "things"

ni la die..yang besar tu saiz 8.0cm x 7.0cm x 5.0 cm and the small one sized 3.0cm x 3.0cm x 2.5cm

hah..ni pulak dokto belah the specimen..nak tgk apa ade..kanser or other effect..alhamdulillah takde ape2..ape yang korang nampak?

erm..that’s it..hopefully azie cepat sembuh..ikut segala pantang larang cam org bersalin.. amin..

erm…poor jerman..tgh tgk replay game pagi tadi.. a very teriffic game ..don’t it? it’s just another 3 minutes time to the penalti shot, but giasso scored a very2 beautiful goal..seriously..the best ever goal i ever seen through this world cup..then, in another minute del piero scored another goal, which make all the people in Jerman cried? hahahha.. italy just make my guess come true..will they have the world cup in their home? we’ll see them in final then..there’s one of my friend said that he don’t want to go to work today.."nak berkabung jerman kalah"..the other day, my brazil’s fan friend also do the same when brazil lost to france in da quarter final..

wualla…world cup could make the people also killed themselves rite? there’s a japan man who did it when japan not even win a game during their group match.. to all football fan out there.. i just can say that.."bola tu bulat" anything could happen, and it is not possible if portugal would win the game against france and meet itali in da final..

what so eva..german pon main best gak..it just that italy man is just so good..especially the captain!! la viva..

Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their
last moments together at the airport. They had
announced the departure. Standing near the security
gate, they hugged and the mother said, "I love you and
I wish you enough". The daughter replied, "Mom, our
life together has been more than enough. Your love is
all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom".

They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked
over to the window where I was seated. Standing there
I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not
to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by
asking, "Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing
it would be forever?" "Yes, I have," I replied.
"Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever
good-bye?"

"I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges
ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be
for my funeral," she said.

"When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, ‘I
wish you enough’. May I ask what that means?"

She began to smile. "That’s a wish that has been
handed down from other generations. My parents used to
say it to everyone".

She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to
remember it in detail and she smiled even more. "When
we said, ‘I wish you enough’, we were wanting the
other person to have a life filled with just enough
good things to sustain them".

Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if
she were reciting it from memory.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in
life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you
possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final
good-bye.

She then began to cry and walked away.

They say ….it takes a minute to find a special person,

                   an hour to appreciate them,

                   a day to love them,

                   but then an entire life to forget them.

erm, a very touching story rite? semalam my old friend called, rupa-rupanya dia dah kawin..alhamdulillah, the guy is the one that she ever loved ..hhahaha…semoga berbahagia, girl..

today birthday abang cruise..erm.semoga dia berbahagia di samping katie holmes yang dah gemuks itu ngan anak die yang nama suri tuh.. janganlah cerai2 lagi coz nicole kidman pon dah kawin ngan keith urban.. to yuyu also..HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY..WELCOME TO OUR WORLD.. mesti dapat lagi adiah dari cik abang kan? last weekend dapat cincin..arini dapat apa ye? hiihi..apepon, may all happiness will always be yours..

untuk azie..erm..esok jumpe dokto..nak bukak balutan..hopefully tak sakit.. wish me luck kawan-kawan..